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Now theres no beauty in bleeding mascara

im best at ruining my life..

Created on 2004-06-12 16:22:30 (#3459427), last updated 2005-04-05

598 comments received, 332 comments posted

Basic Info
Name:If your looking for it
Birthdate:09-27
Location:Hilton, New York, United States
Bio
Take the quiz: "What kick ass band are you?"

The Used
Great band, but listen to their old stuff its better, they rock and remeber BERT IS YOUR HOMEBOY!

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Well yah, here are my poems and songs.

http://www.greatestjournal.com/users/undiscovered89/

Just forget about me..im nothing.

Everything’s fine in the beginning,
Feels like nothing exists,
I knew I never felt like this,
Wanting to go home, didn’t feel right
I can’t control my movements…the shaking, shivering my fright
Everything slowly becomes out of sight…
Afraid of what’s happening…I just knew
I had to wait there alone; there was nothing I could do
I laid there for hours shivering,
Not thinking straight
A numbing feeling throughout my body, staying awake
I wish that I knew but now…what could I do
I begin to close my eyes only to see what’s happened to me
I start to puke I start never to stop, unable to see…
I told the ones I loved because this didn’t feel right
I needed help, thinking, will I become all rite?
I stood up once, to try to stop I did for a minute
But it wasn’t enough
Unable to swallow, haven’t eaten for a over a day
Can’t feel any emotions, can’t speak, nothing to say
My teardrops came down, pouring like icy rain
Praying to fall asleep
So I wouldn’t feel this pain


It's like glass being shattered against the wall.

You took my heart from my chest and stabbed it many times.


My life is rated NC-17.
What is your life rated?


Your not my friend...
Friends don't look at each other the way we do.

It's funny how I can be so mad at you, but then you say something stupid or make that dumb face of yours and then I forget why I was even mad in the first place.

My heart aches completely every hour every day. And only when I am with you does the pain go away

I think that the things that you're most scared of are the ones the most worthwhile.

He is the kidn of guy that makes you love your name just because he says it.

When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouths.

she is .l.o.n.e.l.y. even though you can't tell, she is .r.e.a.c.h.i.n.g. out. for what, she doesn't know. she will continue to sit in .s.i.l.e.n.c.e. and hope that someone may stumble across her and all of her .e.m.p.t.i.n.e.s.s. but she only hopes that they do it in time, otherwise she will have .d.r.i.f.t.e.d. too far and she may let go of whatever grasp of the .w.o.r.l.d. she has. she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone nearly u.n.n.o.t.i.c.e.d.

as you travel through life, there are always those times when decisions just have to be made even when choices are hard and solutions seem scarce and the rain seems to soak your parade. there are some situations where all you can do is simply let go and move on, and gather your courage and choose a direction that carries you to a new dawn. so pack up your troubles and take a step forward. a process of change can be tough but if you think about excitement ahead there might be adventures you never imagined just waiting around the next bend and wishes and dreams just about to come true in ways you can't yet comprehend. perhaps you’ll find friendships that spring from new things. as you challenge your status quo, you'll learn there are so many options in your life and so many ways you can grow. perhaps you’ll go places you never expected and see things you’ve never seen or travel to - fabulous far away worlds and wonderful spots in between. perhaps you’ll find warmth and perfection and caring and somebody special who’s there to help you stay centered and listen with interest to stories and feeling you share. perhaps you’ll find comfort in knowing your friends are supportive of all that you do and believe that whatever decisions you make, they will be the right choices for you. so keep putting one foot in front of the other and take your life day by day. there’s a brighter tomorrow that’s just down the road.

Life has been hard on you and it shows. You have hidden yourself away into the smallest part of your stomach and may never be seen again. Nothing much gets you down because your already pretty depressed anyway. What other people see is very different to what you are - realistic.

...I bet you dont have the ((..courage..)) to drag that blade fully across your skin and you better pray to god that you have the((..courage..)) to press down...

Never let go of anybody that you, can't go a day without thinking About - There is a reason, why they are on your mind

Do you ever lay in bed
Hoping that you'll wake up
in the emergency room
and hear the words
"Shes not gonna make it"

life isnt measured by the breaths you take; but by the moments that take your breath away

My wounds cry for the grave my soul cries for deliverance will i be denied christ tourniquet my suicide

Can you forgive me again i dont know what i said but it hurt me when i hurt you

Nest time I vow to use my words because words help fix things, tears dont.

I love your skin so white i love your touch cold as ice and i love every tear you cry....

After a while you learn the difference between holding a hand and falling in love. You begin to learn that kisses dont always mean something and promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made and sometimes goodbyes really are forever.

Some things are the way they are and words just can't explain

we dance to our own life's soundtrack. sometimes its a sad song and the tears start rolling. we lay in bed, mourning the losses of our lives. sometimes its the kind of song that makes you want to dance in the rain. you get a warm fuzzy feeling inside, the kind of feeling that takes you back to all the good times you had. the times when your world revolved around sleepovers on saturday nights and watching chick flicks with all of your friends. and sometimes it's the kind of song that makes you fall in love. the kind that places you in his arms, dancing under a star lit sky, hoping that that moment never ends. we all have that music within, we just have to chose which track to play.

Dear heart,
I think you remember me. I tend to not care for your feelings and throw you around a lot. Sorry for that. I`d just thought I`d warn you that i fell for a boy. good luck.

Everyone believes very easily whatever they fear or desire the most.

In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide.

The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime.

Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I beseech you
Simple things, that make you run a-way
Catch you if I can

Tears fall, down your face
The taste, is something new
Something that I know
Moving on is, easiest when I am around you.

So bottle up old love,
And throw it out to sea,
Watch it away as you cry
A year has past
The seasons go
*My paper heart-the all american rejects

I'm lost for you
With every moment stays true
I'd go as far as to say that I miss you
So far away
I missed my one chance to say
So on to memories of years that passed away

On these walls tell the stories passed of years gone by
Breaking promises
Pictures up in black and white
Holding back all the words I said
I said goodbye
Open wounds, broken hearts
Please stay tonight

So send your letters of regret
It's not the words you never said
Sing to me
Speak softly now
Hearts will beat
that empty sound
*Letter's of regret-Amber Pacific

he knows he'll be alone tonight,
while contemplating, "What can i do?"
The lack of hope leaves him feeling violent,
it's not that he's looking for a fight,
it's just... he don't know where to turn,
more stress than help,
from home and school,
and on the streets his life's out of control...
*Angry, young, and poor-Anti flag

We're out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is put you far away from me
All I do is put you far away from me
Out of time and I can't breathe
I told you not to believe in me
'Cause all I do is put you far away from me
All I do is put you far away from me

I'm gonna make this work
I'm gonna change everything wrong with me
I'm gonna prove you wrong
when I meet you in another life
Over again
I'm coming back around again
Coming back over again
I'm coming back around again,
but now it's over
*Awkward last words-Armor for sleep

these past few weeks
I've been confused
sometimes I wonder if
I'm better off alone.

you fall in love
then break your heart.
you fall in love again
its never ending.

I used to have this friend
who took his fiance
to see billy idol
a couple weeks before
their wedding day.
the chick got backstage
and left my friend outside.
next day he called
from a hotel
asking for a ride.

I guess I'm giving up on love [x3]
'cause it really kind of sucks

uninspired
and growing tired
why am I always
so attracted to drama?

so here I am
grown up at 23
will someone tell me
what it takes to be happy?

I play in my band
and write a lot of songs
about relationships
and how mine went wrong.
maybe I'll meet that special
girl along the way
then she'll break my heart
and leave me crying.
*Giving up on love-the Ataris

A wraith with an angel's body
A demon with a smile of gold
You soulsucker
I won't become like you
A killer with the perfect weapons, crystal eyes, and a heart of coal
You soulsucker
I won't lose myself in you

Look how pretty she is when she falls down
Now there is no beauty in bleeding mascara
Lip are quivering like a withering rose
She's back again

What the fuck do you think love means?
It's much more than words and feelings sucking me dry
Is my marrow that sweet?
Your dead lovers have left a trail of broken hearts and misspent hopes
Sucking them dry
Does their marrow taste of sweetness, sweetness?
*Bleeding Mascara-Atreyu

Lived through you,
safe with how we lived our lives,
with how it all turned out.
(But things are bound to change)
Uncovered lies, surfaced throughout,
will make you change your mind

Sometimes life is altered
Won't turn out right. Can't turn out right

When I see you, I can read it in your eyes,
fate misunderstood.
(But things are bound to change)
Swallowed the lies, can't blame you for,
thinking with your heart.
*And all things will end-advenged sevenfold

Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that.
I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
*Just enough to love you-Bayside

What's the distance from the bottom?
When you have nothing to lose
Do you see the world move forward?
As you break into pieces,
Remember how you used to walk proud?
How you'd soar above the crowd,
What's the distance from the bottom?

When you wear failure like scars,
And your dreams landed way off mark,
And you know you want to make things right
for the first time in your life,
And your trophies from when you were young,
Are just symbols of where you went wrong,
Well you know how it goes...
*The distance from the bottom-the black maria

our days are running thin
our hopes will start to fall
i can feel the world collapse around me from within
and the letters keep coming by to let us know when time will die
and please god will you forgive us and give us one more try

if you will then we'll go as fast as we go far
maybe well be forgotten when the world is torn apart

i've been up all night long
counting days that all went wrong
i opened my bedroom window
i wish this pain was gone
there are no useful drugs to escape from feeling numb
i remember an amazing birthday
i remember when i was young
*the end with you-box car racer

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessing and now I'm destined
to spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go thinking about all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift cuz all the baggage weighs a ton
I know we had our problems I can't remember one

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away
*Almost-bowling for soup

I'm not writing my goodbyes.
I'm not letting you check out.
You will beat this starting now and you will always be around.
I'm there to monitor your breathing
I will watch you while you're sleeping.
I will keep you safe and sound.
Does anybody remember back when you were very young.
Did you ever think that you would be this blessed?
*Guernica-Brand New ~it is so hard to just pick one song from them~

It was in the march of the winter I turned seventeen
That I bought those pills
I thought I would need
And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me
Just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon
And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself
And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty
So I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep
*No lies just love-Bright Eyes

Slowly the pen touches paper in the guidance of the words that you write.
Memories roll in; of the things you once did
and who you had shared them with. Is somebody thinking of you?
Did I bother telling you this, with the words that cross teeth and jump lips?
A poor choice of words, in wanting to tell you anything.
But words don't come with ease. They're forever my hurt.
Would it really matter, if you were to count the days left with your hands?
Your focus secure and the loves you left; well
smiles staged in photographs here until...

You, you left the light on.
There's a chance I might have tripped, girl
You were there to hold on.
*The light and the glass-Coheed and Cambria

"Take it or leave it." Where the words you chose over mine. So much reminds me of you and I miss your smile. 10.01 and this night is gone. I spent it ill while the world moves on. If time alone were the brush that paints with solace and misfortunate, my life would be a work of art. And I've seen this all before. Things shouldn't have gone this far. We shouldn't have gotten so close. But what made me believe? Was it the girl who made him forget all he's know. Every time he looked into her eyes. Or was it the boy who decided to give up his heart, and run away. Today is gone, tomorrow is mine but I'm still alone. (Keep breathing, keep dreaming, and keep singing for you). Bleeding out so much more, spilling blood since you've left. If I had a second chance id live a life waiting to death.
*The end of everything I love-Daphne loves derby

I'm missing your bed, I never sleep
Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak
and this bottle of beast is taking me home.
I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets
But you're not alone and you're not discreet.
You make sure I know, who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again.
There is not a word that I comprehend,
except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever"

As for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs,
and sit alone and wonder,
how you're making out,
and as for me I wish that I was anywhere
with anyone making out
*Screaming infedelities-Dashboard Confessional ~best song ever~

The atlantic was born today and i'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.

I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
*Transatlanticism-Death cab for cutie

So full of hate and full of fury
To tell you a story
You would say
He was a one man jury
Catalogue of anger posted through your door
Your door, your door, your door
A chance would come to even the score

Stole a gun and he stole a car
Oh boy, oh boy
With a pretty doll he would go far
Down to london where the bright lights are
Lights are, lights are, lights are
And i say
The mission his decision

He took out the gun
On that fateful day
The winds blew cold , the sky turned grey
He pointed the gun
And then he pulled the trigger
The message that he would now deliver
*live fast, die young-Devotchkas

The words you say that are so mean
The way they cut-cut
The way they hurt me
As if I am never good enough for you, for you
Something in they way
The way you walk and the way you talk
I'm sorry that you ? you feel sorry for me
And I'm sorry to say it

Why can't you be there?
Why can't you even care?
Why can't life be fair?
Why am I never good enough?

You set me up to fall down
To hit the ground running
While all the time coming
Was the biggest fall of all
I lost control seemed to have lost my soul
You tried to take away my fantasy
Rock and Roll was the only goal
The thing that meant the most to me
Can't you see that's all I'll ever be
*never good enough-die trying

these eyes they're strongly covered in disguise
they're waiting on the real time again
you'll see that no one knows for sure

for all of this
i'm better off without you
do you regret so
your loneliness

this ride is drifting slowely to the side
we're swerving off the road
going past the cones that warned us from the start
*I want to hear you sad- the early november

There's poison in the boys in blue
There's poison in the boys in blue
Corruption, greed and feud are all I see
You're in a disarray
Things used to be a different way
Whatever happened to the golden age
It's gone yeah it's gone away
So don't ever turn your back again
(one false move and we're all dead)

Here I am [3x]
I'm back at the crossroads again
Let me stand [3x]
On top of the mountain again

There's movement in the distance
Gunshots are all I hear
This petty resistance is all I see
I want to walk away
Remember better days
We watch the death of something beautiful
It's gone yeah it's gone away
So don't ever turn your back again
(one false move and we're all dead)

When we find a problem
We never look back and say
One chance, one moment
It's gone so easily
*Here I am- the explosion

You wonder why I never think you understand because it seems like you're not listening
I laugh aloud then suddenly I dissapear in to another place
I'm glad that I lost you

Glad that I lost you

You push me down but I get right back up off the ground
You'd think you would get it right
I'm glad that I lost you
I'll tape my mouth shut or I'll close my mouth and bite my tongue
I bet you wish I could
Im glad that I lost you

I took your picture from my wall
Replaced it with a poster of The Dolls
I play my records loud so I ca'nt hear you when you call
*Glad that I lost you-the f-ups


Bury me standing under your window with the cinder block in hand
Yeah cause no one will ever feel like this again
And if I could move I'm sure it would only be to crawl back to you
I must have dragged my guts a block... they were gone by the time we (talked)...

[Chorus: x2]
WooOoOo, I want to hate you half as much as I hate myself
But you know that I could crush you with my voice

Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don't want to know a thing

I hate the way you say my name like it's something secret
My pen is the barrel of the gun. Remind me which side you should be on

[Chorus x2]

Stood on my roof and tried to see you forgetting about me
Hide the details I don't want to know a thing

I wish that I was as invisible as you make me feel [x2]

(WooOoOo, I want to hate you half as much as I hate my) [x2]
*The pros and cons of breathing-Fall out boy

Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms
It's empty tonight and I'm all alone
Get me through this one

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so
I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so

I'm writing again these letters to you aren't much, I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart
*Letters to you-Finch

I've boarded up the windows to keep the morning from intrusion
I've left it on the doorknob, could you please just not disturb
On days like this we find it so hard to push ourselves up and out of bed
When nothing falls in favor of
I have so many things I would like to explain to you
But I don't know just how to communicate
I can't take this body shaking
Dress and we'll begin
Nights can be so violent when beds become vacant
So now I've blown it once again,
this would have been the last offense and
You should have been here months ago with open arms and honest face
Addres full doubt you've ever felt frustration well I'm choking on it now
And it's the hardest thing for me to shake
Is it because of this vacancy that you swear never to believe?
Honestly honest me, with a look that's so deceiving
I'll bite, chew, swallow, and digest the hands that feed me
With a bayonet for a tongue,
Swallow swords inadvertently,
And to the organ flame I'll maintain a close adjacency
I have so many themes; I would love to explain to you
Farewell to all the days you were, within my reach,
and as of right now everything is making perfect sense.
*Im best at ruining my life-from autumn to ashes

Throw that punch, swing to hit the target
It's a pointless game, one better, less played
Suicide to kiss your kids goodnight
Will you take from them, what they've taken from you

To be the last one, who will sing you to sleep
To be the last one, who will sing you to...

Just like your unbroken records (unbroken)
A comfort for you tonight
*this years most open heartbreak-funeral for a friend

To every heart thats growing darker, colder and colder
The heart on the sleave is getting older and older
Harder and harder to beat
To every soul thats burning brighter and brighter
Riding the fire higher and higher
The heart on the sleave is growing darker and darker
Harder and harder to bleed

And it won't be long now
And in time you'll find out
This heart is yours, let it bleed
And it won't be long now
And in time you'll find out
This heart is yours, let it bleed

To every time i keep you waiting, holding and praying
The heart on that sleave is always building and breaking
Making it harder to see
To everything that doesn't matter, pulling you under, taking you over
The heart on the sleave is getting closer and closer
Just cut it open and bleed
*Bleed-further seems forever

Maybe I've forgotten
the name and the address
of everyone I've ever known.
It's nothing I regret.
Save it for another day.
It's the school exam and
the kids have run away.

I would like a place I could call my own,
have a conversation on the telephone.
Wake up every day that would be a start.
I would not complain of my wounded heart.

I was upset you see,
almost all the time.
You used to be a stranger,
now you are mine

I wouldn't even trust you.
I've not got much to give.
We're dealing in the limits
and we don't know who with.
You may think that I'm out of hand,
that I'm naive, I'll understand.
On this occasion, it's not true.
Look at me, I'm not you.

I was a short fuse
burning all the time.
You were a complete stranger,
now you are mine.

Just wait till tomorrow.
I guess that's what they all say
just before they fall apart.
*regret-Get-up kids

She called last night still waiting for a reply.
This static contact is pulling us apart.
Please hang on tight,
I'll see you through the night.

You have me still because I'm breathing,
Although it has slowed down.
Please don't cry because I'm leaving.
I hope I see you soon.

Exchange the sunshine for brown eyes and dark skies,
Replace this dull life with you.
I Know it's tomorrow,
She's waiting for something to feel alive.

You know me too well,
She's sorry and I can tell.
Scene missing, fade to black.
You're acting all this out again,

Just wake me when it's over,
When the curtains raise,
It's time to move on.
Exit now, credits rolling,
The girl who stole my heart.
The one that got away...
*screenwriting an apology-hawthorne heights

There exists a melody
That just might change your mind
If only i knew the key
To sing to make you mine

Then i saw it on your keyboard
And you saw it on my sleeve
I never knew a heart existed
Outside of make believe
Till i saw it on your keyboard
I knew at least i might just have a chance
To catch a shooting star

There exists a star above
That always steals my stare
And there exists a star on stage
That never seems to care
*I saw it on your keyboard-hellogoodbye

The cold concrete cuts against her back
And her spirit spills with blood onto the pavement
Hands tied so tight behind her neck
And a silence falls, and everything changes
And everything dies, to you nothing’s alive, to you anymore
I guess you've gotten more than you might have wanted

If I could take your pain away
I would scream for you
I would bleed for you
So you’ll never feel this way
Again when you’re in my arms
I would scream for you
I will bleed for you

She drowns herself until the images erase
But the skin is bruised all along her thighs
Nightmares repeat refrain the memories of pain
In mental photographs haunting all the time so
She shuts her eyes, to you she tries to hide
From you, she falls asleep into dreams where she is safe
*Bleed for you-hidden in plain view

Tell me how you feel.
Because I don't think you care at all.
Confusing transmissions confirm my suspicions.
So I'm not going to keep holding on.
I'm getting out.
I'm not going to play your games.
I've made my decision, no need for revisions
when I know that you don't feel the same.
But that's alright.
I'm far past the point of return tonight.
And there's no lesson here to be learned.
Except to never fall in love again.
Are you listening?
Am I getting through at all?
I'm trying to save you from breaking your heart.
But I know you'll take the fall.
Talking to myself has never really helped.
But that's alright.
Yeah that's alright.
I'm far past the point of return tonight.
And there's no lesson here to be learned.
Except to never fall in love again.
I'll never look back.
I'll never give my heart to you again.
But that's alright.
Yeah that's alright.
I'm far past the point of return tonight.
And there's no lesson here to be learned tonight.
Except to never fall in love again.
*I'll never fall in love-home grown

will the waves of time wash away the pain in my heart? can i bury the knife that has pierced my soul or will i continue to turn it to remind me of my own blindness? because i find no touch of grace to surprise my eyes, or rest my spirit and i have come to realize my good moments were forged in self deception... and the question that plagues my mind... is grace enough? to build a bridge once burned, to fill what is hollow with the substance of virtue though the wings of a dove have wiped the tears from my eyes this tounge has fanned the flames of unforgiveness but love suffers long and rejoices in truth... and this imperfect creation is shortcoming but striving none the less for that which is eternal
*The broken heart of a traitor-hopesfall

It's not enough to hear me say you've won,
you only wanted me for havin' fun.
but now I think you've gone and had your way,
and left me with a pile of bills to pay.
I can't even rewind the tape machine,
to listen to your drunken reasoning.

So here it is, your final lullaby:

So goodnight, goodnight.
You're embarassing me,
you're embarassing you.
So goodnight, goodnight.
Walk away from the door,
walk away from my life.
So goodnight.

I've given up on social nights at ease,
I threw 'em out when I threw out your keys.
Along with all your records I can't stand;
you never even listened to any one of them.
You're never gonna drag me out again,
with all the people that were never ever even your friends.
*Goodnight goodnight-hot hot heat

I was scared but once I thought about, I let it go
Everything she said to me I guess I ought to know
We're all tired talk when it comes to shove
Put up, put out or stay at home.

[Chorus:]
We'll never be the same, never feel this way again
I'd give you anything but you want pain.
A little water please, I taste you all over my teeth
Never again. Just tonight? Ok

All at once the music stopped, the feeling went away
An ugly picture, me and you, but nothing I can change
You know what happens with the lights back on
The less you know the more you want (you want, you want)
*Just tonight-Jimmy Eat world

Just forget about it, anything I said about it.
Drive away tonight, you think it's fine.
You put it all inside and run and never look behind.
It's all the same besides the fact that it's mine.
Think of me when you're dreaming and know,
I'm wide awake and thinking of you.
Cause I swear when you're there alone,
Know that I'm wide awake tonight..

You could hold my heart.
It's all yours if you want.
*Hold my heart-Letterkills

"It's magic", she says to me.
My hand in her way, she approached sweetly.
It's enough when I see that look in her eyes,
its enough for me to panelize.

Whoa, I'm waiting for the breakdown.
Well nothing feels good, being under the count.
Whoa, I'm waiting for the breakdown.

"It's tragic", she says to me.
A song in the air, we're together floating.
What I miss everyday since our goodbye,
was enough for me to realize.
*Breakdown-Mae

Let's start out by starting over.
What did I expect?
You're no good at lying and I'm no good at comebacks.
But you're so untouchable.
I'm oh-so-terrible at this.
I'm terrible at this, you know.

Don't hold this against me.
I've already said I'm sorry.

And I bet you've got every word I said
memorized in your head.
And you'll use every one of them,
and you'll use every one of them against me
*Lovers and Liars-Matchbook Romance

[VERSE:]
I can recall only this one time
This kind of control the girl had on my mind
I'm falling deep, I can't get out
I've never acted this way before

[CHORUS:]
I spent days and nights in my bedroom
Trying to write the perfect song to sing to you
Write a song a day but she won't like it anyway
Back to the drawing board
With the words you've heard a million times before

[VERSE:]
Feeling alone, and she's on my mind
Try to erase all the pain from that time
She's breaking up, and I'm breaking down
Now I'm headed out of this fucked up town
*Drawingboard-Mest

Make my body motion, yeah the night is young
Open like the ocean, cold and numb
Dance until the sweat forms on your face
It won't take long to flush the poisons

I don't care where you come from
If it's awful there
All of us are alone
I forget where I come from
And I don't care

So what's wrong? I think too much
I don't want to fuck you, I don't want to touch
I just want to fill you with regret
I've said it all before, it's pointless
*Empty like an ocean-Midtown

I got the message long before you said you knew
There was no chance of us at all
With no velocity and empty-headed hard and far-to-long
I spent two years alone with you
Just when I thought I had forgotten
You came back soft without a sound

You said we were an accident
With accidents you’ll never know what could have been
So we were an accident
You’ll always be my favorite one

You hit the road and left me an ocean
I can't swim in the silence of your skin-skin please let me in
Side the times we never had right
Inside two years alone with you
*MY favorite accident-Motion city soundtrack

Spare me your sympathy. I did it to myself.
I know how it's gonna be.
I don't need someone else to tell me that I'm crazy.
She tells me all the time.
She's getting too close to me, it's time to self-destruct.

Don't sit next to me, run while you can. I'll self-destruct.

Get in, let's go for a ride. I'm such a harmless guy.
I'll look into your eyes, show you I'm on your side.
I'll move in for the kill, it's over before I start.
She's getting too close to me, it's time to self-destruct.

Don't sit next to me, run while you can. I'll self-destruct.
I'll fall for her, better take cover. I'll self-destruct.

I can't pretend that I, I don't see the end.
I can't pretend that I, I don't see the end.
*Self-detruct-the movielife


I need the comfort,
That's in your arms,
Squeeze and hold me tight, and keep me warm
I need the passion,
That's in your heart,
Say you'll never leave and be apart

So don't walk away,
Don't turn your back,
If you leave today,
My whole world would turn black,
So don't walk away,
Don't change your mind,
It's time you took the chance,
And put your hand in mine,
So don't walk away

I need the glow of,
Your darling face
Accept this crown of love,
And live in grace
I need the colors,
Painted in your mind
Your beauty and your brilliance,
So hard to find
*Dont walk away-MxPx(aww my song)

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets

I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and

I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running

But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold

Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...
*Demolation Lovers-My chemical romance

I'm punching myself out
Holding in my breath
I can take this lightly
Throwing up the words that I said to you
I always do what I'm not supposed to
Here's to us fools
That have no meaning
I tip my glass to you
Let's toast the night away to friends
And forget about tomorrow
I might say things you don't want to hear
But someday you might care and I won't be there
No I won't be there here's to us fools
That have no meaning
I tip my glass to you
Let's toast the night away to friends
And forget about tomorrow
I'm punching myself out
Holding in my breath
I can yell all I want
Throwing up the words that I said to you
I always do what I'm not supposed to
*Ballad for the hopeless romantic-new found glory

If you wanna make the move
then you better come in
it's just the ability to reason
that wears so thin
living and dying and the stories that are true
secrets to a good life is knowing when you're through

[Chorus]
black coat, white shoes, black hat, cadillac
yeah, the boy's a time bomb
[x2]

well, he's back in the hole where they got him living
like a rat but he's smarter than that nine lives
like a cat 15 years old take him to the youth authority home
first thing you learn is that you got to make it
in this world alone
*Time bomb-Rancid(w00t my song)

feelings, inside of my head
i don't know, but i'm thinking about you
understand that it's so hard to tell you, cause you already know
you already know
when it's twice as hard to realize
that i'm still trying twice as hard to satisfy myself on my own

and i'm still waiting for things to change
i lay my life before you, and i'm not getting up
father, how i adore you
those words are not enough
father, know i love you, and know i am wrong
Lord, please take my life
make me your son
make me your son
*Those words are not enough-Relient K

We started off, a little wide ago
We built this little boat
And sailed it off to sea
Then we brought a friend along the way
We decided he would stay
Stay with you and me
Bought some sticks
And put then in your in hands
I taught you how to stand
I taught you everything
I opened up your mind to something new
And now it something you can use
You don't have to thank me
But don't expect me, to be smiling
When we meet again
I think you'll understand
I don't think I want to be your friend
Now there's only one solution
And of course you jump up to conclusions
And you can count how much we owe you
But you just lost something much greater
You just lost your best friend
So don't expect me, to be smiling
When we meet again
I think you'll understand
I don't think I want to be your friend
You had your chance, you did not change
We took your future, in our own hands
This is no game, I will not wait
I can't wait for you to change now
You had your chance, you did not change
We tool our future, in our own hands
This is not a game, I will not wait
I can't wait for you to change now
*Friend-Reset (haha)

so close to
no one that
you care for
cause you don't care
it's not worth it
can't think straight
so take your pill
and stop whining
so close your eyes
and think of your lies
behind the wall
of innocence lost
think of family
and think of your friends
think about all these thoughts will be gone when you're dead... dead

always feel discomfort
always feel alone well who cares about it
cant find a
good reason
to stay here
so stop whining
so close your eyes
and think of your lies
behind the wall
of innocence lost
think of family
and think of your friends
think about all these thoughts will be gone

if you really did
want to end your life
you'd be gone by now
it's just a cop out
you can't pull through
you don't know what to do
you analyze it
but you can't see straight
you don't know what to think
don't blame your shit on me
it's getting older these days
just keep on passing by
leave me alone

so close your eyes
and think of your lies
behind the wall innocence lost
think of family
and think of your friends
think about all these thoughts will be gone when you're dead... dead
*Stop whining-Rufio(god this is the best song ever)

friends with me today,
friends with me but not tomorrow.
there is nothing left to say (because i lost them)
what did i do
lost a handful found a few
my hearts still close to you
hold me so tight,
don't let me drown (i won't).
what's deep inside
i won't let go
stretching out today,
grasping forth there's no tomorrow.
we're all gone our own ways
what did i do?
cut off what i mean to you
but at least i told the truth.
there's no love for us all
there's no place for my future
nothing left not at all
nothing left i can't find it
i can see its my fault
how could i be so stupid?
*Lost- RX bandits

I'm in a parking lot by myself
It's quarter to nine and I've been here since 5:45
Oh, there's no one but I can see some flickering lights
I can hear some dogs barking in the back yards
And I smell gasoline
I wish the sky were open 'cause if there weren't those trees
I think I could see for miles
The city is just beyond those clouds
I guess this is what it's like to be really down
And holding out for something
Remembering the warm nights
Remembering the open arms of two years ago
Oh there's nothing like this parking lot
And seeing the stars in morning
'Cause I can see them from where I'm lying
I can feel the cold pavement against my skin
It's tingling.
*The last lie i told-Saves the day

All the words in my mouth that the scene deemed unworthy of letting out banded together
To form a makeshift militia and burrowed bloodily through my tongue and my teeth.
I stood proud in the gallery with my open socket of a mouth for them to see.
They all just laughed and said "That boy , he, that boy's got woe.(woe.) He lives with woe.(woe.)"
And this girl who I met whose pride makes her hard to forget,
She took pity on me (horizontally) but most likely because of my band.(hey)
It's all I can get when I'm lonely and these visions of death seem to own me
In the quiet of the classrooms all across the stacked United States of Woe. We live with woe.
She said "I can't get laid in this town without these pointy fucking shoes.
My feet are so black and blue and so are you."
Please take me out of my body up through the palm trees to smell California in sweet hypocrisy.
Floating. My senses surround my body. I wake my nose to smell that ocean burn.
So now I'm forging ahead past all the plutocrats who sold me out.
Go sob in your bed. If life is twice as pretty once your dead then send me a card.
I'm still the optimist though it is hard when all you want to be is in a dream.
*Woe-Say anything

I won't forget the day that, that I came to
And I started thinking that there's more
Than just perfect prom queens and silver spoons
And all I ever wanted was someone to
knock me back to the bliss of ignorance
'Cause I feel like running head first into traffic.

And so I'm here to say
That thoughts in bed with pain.

I won't forget the day that, that I found God
In a kitchen knife now and on my arm
So paint the pale white floor with, with my red life
And tell myself this pain is the pain I love
As I swallow the pills of happiness
And you watch me fall like New York in an earthquake
*Angela baker and my obsession with fire-senses fail

I can resist everything except temptation.
My body breaks, but I am still intact inside.
My human instinct, I can love unconditionally.

Cross my heart and lie to you
(My conscience plagues at me, fills me with this despair) Failure within me.
Promise you and let you down
(Emotion conquers my soul, robs me of myself) Brings me to my knees.
Follow me, lead you astray
(Nourish myself with fear, give me the pain to fail) Loathe myself to sleep.
Your words kill me.

You can breathe without oxygen and live without sorrow.
How I envy you, though pity your ghost.
Ignorance is bliss I wish I could never love you.
*When broken is easily fixed-Silverstein


I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
*Untitled-Simple Plan

A long day
If ever these questions were yours what would you say
you don't know
but I'm writing the answers on cheap paper napkins
and now he's turning off
and now she's shutting down
and it's not what it seems
nothings the same when you give it away
no its not what it seems
it's just what you think it is
and these fights
they climb through my veins like its mecury rising
and these nights
I seem to remember a home that was better
and now he's turning off
and now she's shutting down
and its not what it seems
nothings the same when you give it away
no its not what it seems
its just what you think it is
and now he's turning off
his family's breaking down
and it's not what it seems
*Not what it seems-Something corporate

Sometimes a struggle builds you somehow
Tears you down, Leaves you dead
Time will pass, back to life
Hand on Shoulders, Bigger, Better
Sunday night, Tempers flair
Fights erupt and trickle down
Apologies, threats and lies
Backing down, compromise

While this city burns
These wounds will heal
You'll find your way
Though lines in sand
Become a proving ground
You'll find in time
Who can top who is their life

Sometimes a struggle leaves you fragile
Shaken up, Shotgun shy
With heartache past, and open eyes
You'll come back stronger, Bigger, Better
Maybe this time, Things will change
Brand new day, Forgive, Forget
Time has past, back to life
Hand on Shoulders, Bigger, Better

Only you with time can define your life
It's yours
*lines in sand-Sparta

the minute before we play
i'm pacing waiting anxiously
i can't wait to hit the stage
and say hello to jersey
and when the last note rings
and when i've sung all i have to sing
every minute i will count
till the next show in the next town

what can i say
that can explain
all this time
i'm loving life
theres not a day
that i could say
all this time
i'm living out my...

the feeling is screaming out
the words of the things i think about
hearing them coming back
from the crowds mouth is perfect
and when the curtains close
i'll realize how fast time could go
thanks for everything
you know how much this means
*Given the chance-the starting line

i still recall every summer night
like it was yesterday
the time would never end
and my friends were family
nothing mattered more
than the loyalty we had
now i'm a world away from everything we shared

i had something better
waiting ahead
i try to take control of my heart
i had something better
but i'll tear it down and i'll tape it up
by my own design i fall

bring back the days
three story parking lot
the air is never dry
as the city falls asleep, days bleed into the night

the tables set the stage
for a life of memories
but i'm a world away from everything
*page avenue- story of the year

Moving in slow like the smoke from your cigarette,
Every step a closer's a step that we both will regret,
Keeping a tally, but who can keep track?
Your overreacting is taking me back to a time better left alone,

Holding onto the phone,
Holding onto this glass,
Holding onto the memory of what didn't last.
Waiting for better words,
They'll never come.
So dry your eyes,
It's better,
Now it's done...

Keep a tight grip like a child holding onto a swing set,
Waiting and hoping to find what I can't figure out yet,
Please don't unless this is something to me,
Another nightmare instead of a dream,
Better left alone,
*now its done-Straylight run

Remember when there was nothing else to do, but lie in bed and,
wonder how it was always up to you, and no one else and,
Early mornings, plagued by warnings, what's the point of the alarm that I'm ignoring?
It's even raining, I'm not complaining, but waking up is hard to do so,

[Chorus:]
Turn my head its back to bed with no delay,
Can't be bothered by the phone ten times a day,
Why get up when morning doesn't even start till two?
Forget reality waking up is hard to do.

Remember when we would hang out every day, and we would rather,
Not be told what to do or what to say, cause nothing mattered.
Never boring, slept in mornings, not ashamed of the habits that I'm forming.
Its not important if days are shortened, I can't make time when nothings new,
Cause waking up is hard to do so,

[Chorus]
Turn my head its back to bed with no delay,
Can't be bothered by the phone ten times a day,
Why get up when morning doesn't even start till two?
Forget reality waking up is hard to do.

What's a day when it all ends up the same, and lasts forever?
Can't complain when there's nothing there to blame, and things can't be better.
Summer evenings, teenage grievings, got no problem with the life that I've been leading.
No concentration on hesitation, I can't make time when nothings new,
Cause waking up is hard to do so!
*heart attack-sum 41

And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm something you'll be missing
(is that I'm something that you're missing)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...

I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
*Your so last summer-taking back sunday

one day the dreamers died within us
when all our answers never came
we hid the truth beneath our skin but
our shadows never looked the same

a ghost is all that's left
of everything we swore we never would forget
we tried to bleed the sickness
but we drained our hearts instead
we are, we are the dead

and when we couldn't stop the bleeding
we held our hearts over the flame
we couldn't help but call it treason
after that we couldn't fill our frames
after that our shadows never looked the same
*all thats left-thrice

Now its time to wrap our fears in the night
And on the first day we'll dress this city in flames
After all the things you say
You hate me for being this way

Still you won't let go of old ideals
There is no headline to read at night
When the record skips and you're not holding the needle

We all sing the songs of separation
And we watch our lives bleed out through our hands
Thats how it was on the first day
We saw Paris in Flames

I think it's going to rain, rain down
*Paris in flames-thursday

Shut down
Fallin over once again
Dropped out
Hand extended for a friend
Looked up
And there's you lookin in
And who cares
Cause no ones lookin anyway
Impaired
My vision lost it yesterday
And that's fine
Don't mind feelin that way
Just don't let me lie here by my self
Let’s go
I know I'm faded
Outta sight
Tonight
Just stay with me, I don't wanna go home
Outta sight
Tonight
Just rescue me
I don't wanna go
Rewind and take me back to start again
*Rescue me-unwritten law


see all those people on the ground
wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that I have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down, slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

on my own [x6]

without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all

on my own [x4]
*on my own- the used

it is only in my dreams
that I permit myself to be insane
and I scream for no apparent reason

and my urge to crumble
the lives of others elevates as my...
my veins, they become a map

and words no longer make sense
for it is only actions that affect
the extent of temporary disease

in my dreams my veins become a map that guide me through insanity...

trapped inside my own body, but my actions reflect the work of a madman
my hands shake uncontrollaby, palms soaked in sweat
come as result of my nightmares, and my dreams
*In my dreams-with broken wings

And im searching for something...
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